I turned 21 last week.. yay!!!!.. not.. Look I'm very thankful to God for my life and that of my fam's but that was almost the worst bday ever.. first off, don't think I was mentally prepared to turn 21.. like really, being twenty-one is a FACKING BIG DEAL!!!!.. and I don't know, wasn't just ready for it.. I have t grow up fasst I guess.. Life's not waiting for me
I'm always super excited for all my other b-days.. not like I'm a big party kinda girl.. but I get so much love on that day.. I feel so special.. but this year's was bleh.. I wasn't looking forward to it at all.. it was like whatever.. then it hit me when a second past 12 and my phone started t ring.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!.. oh yeah.. I'm 21....O.o
I was so stressed out that day.. had two major exams the next day.. of which I wasn't ready for.. and would later turn out bad.... still haven't checked the results.. don't have the nerves to...
Ok honestly, the day wasn't a complete disaster..... got t talk t my fam and my bestest friends in the world.. I mean, what more do I need?!?!
Being 21 comes with a whole lot of responsibilities... your adult life already started.. uuggghh.. when did we grow up???... I'm not ready yet.. I'm not where I thought I'd be by the time I turned 21... oh well, "Life's what happens to us while we are busy making other plans"... I'm still thankful tho .. *Alhamdulilah*
I feel like I haven't really grown since I turned 17.... maybe I'm being a little too hard on myself but that's exactly how I feel...
Oh well, that's as far as my unconscious let me go.... it decided to hoard the rest of the feelings as usual.... when I'm more comfortable I'd be back... gotta go to bed.. BIG DAY tomorrow.... it's Boxing Day... and in the States too.. whoop whoop!!!!!!!!!!.... wish I had more money.... right now, shopping is the only thing that gives me JOY!!!
